Well I have borken in

So apperently now I know the password and user name and my most wonderful wife does not. Apperently I think that makes me by default a not so wounderful husband. Onto to more interesting things, for example God's leading and teaching. As was reading in Jeremiah chapter 1 I came near the end of the chapter and God through this little bit on to the end of his assignment for Jeremiah.
Jer 1:17-19
17 "Get yourself ready! Stand up and say to them whatever I command you. Do not be terrified by them, or I will terrify you before them. 18 Today I have made you a fortified city, an iron pillar and a bronze wall to stand against the whole land--against the kings of Judah, its officials, its priests and the people of the land. 19 They will fight against you but will not overcome you, for I am with you and will rescue you," declares the LORD. (from New International Version)
Ok how would you like God saying that to you today? God is essentially saying, "You think people are scary you haven't seen what I can do yet." It is interesting that our whole faith in God calls us to stop looking with our eyes at the physical world and see the true reality through that physical world. God takes creation and paints a very special picture one of himself. If we look at man and fear them we forget that we forget that there is a creator. A creator who has wiped out with one angle over 100 thousand soldiers in one night. That creator wants to be on our side. That creator can truelly terrify.
Yet God in his infinate wisdom choses to let us suffer as he let Jeremiah. Infact Jeremiah suffered so much as he served God that he came to the point that he thought God had tricked him. So I guess this is were I come in I have in the past thought God had tricked me. He let me get this job I thought to be alight there. Well maybe he did and maybe he didn't. Maybe he gave me a job to work hard at and to show that I am willing to work hard for him even if no one gets saved. Look at Moses God sent him to the desert for 40 years before he started saving anyone. Some how I got to thinking that since I had gone and gotten all this bible education God should use me more make me more bold for him. Yet it seems the opposite. It seems that he has used me less and made me less couragous. For what I say?
I'm begging to think maybe so that I would learn to say yes Lord, no matter the task no matter the work I will do it in your strength for your glory amen.
In Christ
Ray